spread your wings

i have searched for contentment in the world and been disappointed. the only thing that has brought me back is the love the Father has for me. i run and he chases me, i fall and he carries me, but when i love he teaches me to fly.

"i want to seek you right where you are. i want to be with you. others have no hold on me. i need your presence to consume me and your love to overwhelm me in this place. i have nothing to give but all of me. i want you to come and take me away from this place. i ask for your perfect peace. your beautiful perfect peace. i will wait for you. you are so lovely, there is nothing like you, words are not enough to tell of your great name. your words bring me life. your glory is all around me. you protect me with your perfect love. its always you that i long for. all i want is you."

HaPpY 2010 !

this is a year for sweet new memories, deeper relationships, new love, peaceful transitions ,and lots of laughter. welcome 2010!

just one more glimpse of your grace is all i need.

perfect peace

" soak me in your glory. soak me in your grace. i am so consistent with my need for you but so inconsistent with my pursuit. show me miraculous signs of your love. your constant, forgiving, love. put me exactly where i need to be. not a moment before. i want to see your face and feel your touch. my entire being aches for you. whenever i write to you its the same. i feel as nothing changes. give me a seeking heart so that i may search and find you. so that i may SEARCH and FIND you. awake my sleeping spirit, i want to feel you when i am awake. my song to you is lovely. my dance is so worthy because you made me beautiful."

breathe

i have often felt the need to take really deep breaths.... i don't know what this is. Do i forget sometimes or are things that bothersome?
i strive to be content, i strive to have purpose, i strive to be something greater. but all the while forgetting the most important thing......breathe. just breathe.
i need to be so close to the Fathers embrace that he breathes in me and breathes for me.

"tell me the things you have for me. show me your love. give me signs of your unfailing destiny. kiss the path you have chosen and teach me your kindness. breathe for me. breathe in me. hold me when i cant be alone. lead me when i'm scared to look. be my eyes and see for me. Oh how i love to sing to you and love you. I would whisper your sweet music if it were pleasing to you but my spirit sings it loud and lovely. you have control over the best parts of me and you have domain over the worst. what can i do for you, what could i bring to you my beautiful beloved?"

something greater

i always believed that i was made for something big. i was going to be great at something. maybe even invent something wonderful.... i moved from one thing to the next trying to find greatness, searching for my something big. i can do lots of things...play sports, paint a picture, take pictures, sing. but i'm not great.
ok, so i move on, thats not my great thing.
i have wanted to be an artist, a musician, a master of all languages, a writer.... again not greatness. i longed to be great for the approval of people, i almost needed to hear that i did a good job. i didn't want to be ordinary...i wanted to be unique.
but in all this i think i missed something. i missed the whole point.
We are ALL made for something big, something great. thats why in all of us there is this longing for greatness.... a greatness that is not found in this world.