just one more glimpse of your grace is all i need.

perfect peace

" soak me in your glory. soak me in your grace. i am so consistent with my need for you but so inconsistent with my pursuit. show me miraculous signs of your love. your constant, forgiving, love. put me exactly where i need to be. not a moment before. i want to see your face and feel your touch. my entire being aches for you. whenever i write to you its the same. i feel as nothing changes. give me a seeking heart so that i may search and find you. so that i may SEARCH and FIND you. awake my sleeping spirit, i want to feel you when i am awake. my song to you is lovely. my dance is so worthy because you made me beautiful."

breathe

i have often felt the need to take really deep breaths.... i don't know what this is. Do i forget sometimes or are things that bothersome?
i strive to be content, i strive to have purpose, i strive to be something greater. but all the while forgetting the most important thing......breathe. just breathe.
i need to be so close to the Fathers embrace that he breathes in me and breathes for me.

"tell me the things you have for me. show me your love. give me signs of your unfailing destiny. kiss the path you have chosen and teach me your kindness. breathe for me. breathe in me. hold me when i cant be alone. lead me when i'm scared to look. be my eyes and see for me. Oh how i love to sing to you and love you. I would whisper your sweet music if it were pleasing to you but my spirit sings it loud and lovely. you have control over the best parts of me and you have domain over the worst. what can i do for you, what could i bring to you my beautiful beloved?"

something greater

i always believed that i was made for something big. i was going to be great at something. maybe even invent something wonderful.... i moved from one thing to the next trying to find greatness, searching for my something big. i can do lots of things...play sports, paint a picture, take pictures, sing. but i'm not great.
ok, so i move on, thats not my great thing.
i have wanted to be an artist, a musician, a master of all languages, a writer.... again not greatness. i longed to be great for the approval of people, i almost needed to hear that i did a good job. i didn't want to be ordinary...i wanted to be unique.
but in all this i think i missed something. i missed the whole point.
We are ALL made for something big, something great. thats why in all of us there is this longing for greatness.... a greatness that is not found in this world.

the simple things...

laughter

sand between your toes

homemade popsicles

fresh fruit in the morning

sunrises

the sound of birds chirping right before bedtime

the first bite of an apple after hours of hunger

beautiful pictures

meaningful art

merri-go-rounds

perfect fall days

the changing of leaves

long drives with friends

the countryside

summer swimming

weather or not....

my favorite time of the year is now.... i couldn't be happier. windows open all night, fire pits, laughing with friends, i just described the perfect evening.
when i was small my brothers and i would play this game in the fall, when the wind blew the leaves would fall faster and we would chase after them. whoever caught the most won. pretty sure i never won but who cares when the memory is sweeter than the prize?
i feel like this is the perfect time for renewal. everything feels fresh, crisp, new. this is a time where the trees almost resemble gold, like royalty swaying in the breeze. this is the time when the trees kiss the sky.
love

the perfect image...

i just finished taking images for a friend of mine.... i have decided that the word photographer is overused. if you have a camera you can be a photographer these days, so i am called an image capturer, or an image shooter.........nothing has really stuck yet so i will keep you posted.
i actually started this sweet little hobby about five years ago when i worked at a daycare here in town. children are so easy to capture and by the end of that year i helped the school with an art show to raise money for them. after that i was hooked, i got so much positive feedback that i decided to take a 35mm class at the university. i graduated with a teaching degree but for fun i would love to go back and learn more about photography. i don't think i will make a career out of it but i think its a great hobby to have.
so for now, so as not to be like the crowd, i am an image capturer....

fly away home

there are certain words that i love... some that i love to say and others that i love to see, i like how they look. this may be weird but its the truth. "fly" is one of these words. this one has so much meaning behind it though. you always see inspirational quotes about "flying away" "spreading your wings" and as cheesy as these are they always get me... i can always relate. i love this.
i could make a list of the others but who really cares except me, instead i will just sneak them in time and again like i didn't mean to.
apart from this being an awesome word, aesthetically and meaningfully, i of course just saw another quote about flying today. "you already have your wings, all you have to do is learn to fly"
ok yes! i have decided i will paint that and make it awesome.

organic

i love new foods....i would travel the world just to taste something new. i want the most nutritious and best for my body. i have decided to slowly cut out everything that is not just that. my body reacts to everything that i put in it. i need the whole grains and the fresh organic veggies...anything but and my body suffers. it starts to crave those sugars that are only found in ice cream and chocolate... if i slowly take those away then i can become healthier. i will and i can. now is the best time to start.

full

this is what i'm going to look like in twenty years, hopefully. my mother, full of grace, doesn't know how to see anything other than the good in people. she is THE most important person in my life. i have always secretly hoped that i would be like her when i got older.....not a chance. i couldn't be more like my dad if it was even possible. dont get me wrong, he's great. hands down the best dad ever....but my mom has something that no other person has ever possessed, grace.

what happens next...

i have never known what is coming up in my life and actually take pride in the not knowing. in some way its very exciting to me. "go with the flow" has always had a special place in my heart. its not that i'm aimless. i have a great job, cheap house, nice little nestled life......but what happens next? i'm not at all unhappy, i love what i'm doing right now......but thats just it, its only right now. what happens after now?